this is my first post , i do not know if i am doing this the right way. i was kind of looking for a prosuicide site and found out that there aren’t any! or that i could not find it. i find myself begging to god to please kill me, i know that i am not going to kill myself soon. i do not know why. i just see the future as a huge load of misery and i really don’t want to go on. i am sixteen and nowone around me understands or cares. my friends don’t take it seriously and just think it is annoying, they are too immature. and all older people tell me its the hormones and i am still so young and this and that. i don’t care! i know how my personality works, i know how my minds is set in a self destructive way! i i know that i hate everyone and myself more everyday. i know that every day i see the world and life more negatively , and i know this is all my own fault , and the only thing you can do about it is say i gotta stand up for myself and do positive things and hurt me more in that way because i know you are right and i know i am not going to help myself. so please can someone kill me??
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Time will tell which path you take, whether that is for finding purpose or your exit. You are right about there not being any real pro-suicide sites anymore. There used to be a few newsgroups, but they’re all either dead or filled with trolls now. Too many news reports to keep those going. I’ve only been registered here a day, but the attitude here is pretty relaxed. Well as relaxed as a bunch of users obsessed on self-destruction can be. Hope you can enjoy your stay while you’re here.
hey evelien,
often all what is need is find someone who is willing to listen to you. most certainty i am the wrong guy for that but you can find plenty of them here. talk about what makes your life suck so you can deal with that – let it out and don’t let it destroy you from the inside. you are still young and you have plenty of time to turn things around.
you said:
>> “they are to immature”
>> “i know that every day i see the world and life more negatively”
>> “i just see the future as a huge load of misery and i really don’t want to go on”
do you tend to think deeply about things so you are some steps ahead of the others of your age?
can’t you relate to them and enjoy activities or fields of interest like the others of your age do because you think that those activities or fields of interest are profane or pointless?
some people mentally mature to early and that often does create problems.
i’m just guessing so take it with a grain of salt.
my point is you need to figure out what makes your life suck, if you know that you can deal with it. you will find your place then and start to enjoy life again.
yours beatenup