My fantasy world is gone, what I had made of the world to keep me happy is gone. Nobody in the world understands me. I feel distant from my family. What was once unity, is now one son, one member isolated and confused, me. Nobody expects me to suicide. But for the last 3 years, i have had countless suicide thoughts. Is it for the attention, no. Is it to send a message to those who don’t care for me but will then; maybe. Or is it because I’m sick of the fakeness, the stupidity, the judgement, of our society. How the government fucks with our heads, propaganda bullshit. In any case, I was tired of everything. Took the butcher knife, put it steadily against my neck, then my wrist, which one should I do? Which one should i fucking do, huh? I don’t know, im a confused ************, I just want to go to a far university, stay isolated, do my work. If anyone fucks with me, i’ll do ???? something you can’t imagine. Maybe i have issues, don’t we all do. Maybe i have the potential to be a psychopath. Too many fucking maybes, thats why its time to cut it and i did, wrist looked like a puddle of blood shit. Unluckily, i was found and unfortunately saved, by someone at a bad time. Why am i sharing this, does anyone give a shit. I don’t think so, and i don’t care. im doing this so someone who goes on this computer can see it when i’m hanging from the roof. There are no methods of suicide here, is that what im supposed to say? Well there isn’t and if anyone wants to do it, do it. Only thing that can save me is, a couple L’s just to put me in peace and then say goodbye to 2011, one year before everything obliterates. REMEMBER PEOPLE, REALITY IS RIGHT, DREAMS ARE NOT FOR REAL. if you have a fucked up life, you do and accept it.
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I completely get where u are coming from.. i feel 100% the same way ive been on the site 10min and wow i can finally see that im not the only one with problems like mine my email is going to be on my profile if u wanna talk maybe we can help ea other out just maybe…..
hell fucking yes is all i have to say. someone finally sees the world for what it is and doesn’t sugar shit. i had a mental breakdown not too long and wrote this long rant that sounded similar to your post, basically hating on society and every industry imaginable.
*sugar coat
Wah, wah, wah pull the trigger or swallow
@ctb-driver. Lol you tool. I love your response. You are society. You are the little shit that will get killed by a psycho. Watch who you fuck with. Am i gonna find and **** you. Lol who knows? who the fuck knows? but…..i don’t wah, wah….i only do that when i see you types that make me sick.
I’m not here looking for help or an excuse – just killing time and getting things in order. I’m out on Nov 11. Peace out
The day after my 236th birthday YO
you’re here because you have no one who cares about you and you want attention, you want someone to see that you’re not okay. doesn’t mean you have to be a dick.
Wah wah pull the trigger and swallow? I think you’re in the wrong place mate. Seemingly people are dicks, in and out, whatever that means. Isolation is the key, keep to yourself, keep your money, and wallow. Although some people feel alone when they do have others, but keep to themselves so the loneliness makes complete sense.
You ask does anyone give a shit..does anybody care..well I don’t proclaim to care about you..but yeah I do care that somebody out there is feeling very close to what i feel..m just sick of this world..i’ve attempted it too.but unfortunately was saved too..i just want to go to some other world..where none of this shit is there…