My Mom is the main reason why I want to die….
She makes everything so much harder and frustrating. Honestly, when I am around her I feel as though I should just be a piece of shit. That I am not good enough and never will be. Because I am not like her and I do exactly what she wants. I hardly get to go out… I can’t go shopping, can’t be me, or creative. She makes me feel like, I should just die.. and with the way things are..
….I honestly can’t think of a reason to keep holding on right now…
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Think of something you like, just for a few moments maybe you can find a reason to hold on for another 24 hrs.
One day at a time, thats all we have, and anyone can hold on another 24 hrs.
Please, hold on. I can’t make you live, but I beg that you find a way out. I will hope that you find the will to live and carry on because one day, you’ll find that you love life.
Feel you on that .
All these women in my family bashing me because I refuse to be the footrest of one of their gender.
Or because I refuse to bow to their insignificant little gods.
Or because my interests do not include the crap that is puched out by the mainstream media.
At least I do know my fictional interest are meant to be fictional.
FINALLY. Trust me when I say thing – I AM IN THE SAME EXACT POSITION AS YOU ARE. When the one who let you come to this world can’t accept you for who you are, who the fuck can love you? She’s the reason why I couldn’t ever love myself, why I cannot stand to look at myself in the mirror, I’ve given her everything I could. I’ve never smoked pot, never drank, never kissed, I’ve been that perfect daughter all my fucking life. And when I wanna drop outta school. NOOOO. That’s not possible? I can never love her. ‘Cause she never loved me. Never listened to me when I got beaten up in school. Instead went out with her so called boyfriend. What mother’s love, wow.
Has to be one of the harshest trials on anyone.
A mother not loving their child.
That even affects you in your first five years as a bonding process.
I hope the both of you find a way to love yourselves enough.
Because that is not a fair start to any child.