Sleep, then only escape I get from life. As I drift off into a world of nothing I have no worries and no cares. Everything is just so peaceful. Half the time I don’t remember it but thats the best part. I feel like every-time when I sleep I die. I fall into a space of nothingness and I’m gone. Lost forever. But then I wake up and everything sucks again. If only I could sleep forever…..Oh wait I can. And I want to. Every-night I wish I never have to wake up again. That I never have to breath another breath and my heart doesn’t have to beat another beat. It would be so simple if we could choose to never wake up. It would make dying a whole lot easier too. Everyday I look forward to sleeping and regret waking up. I need an easy way to sleep forever. To be peaceful and happy forever. I just want to die. Never come back. People wont miss me or care. Nothing will change without me so why should I stay and suffer? I shouldn’t. I should go now. I want to go now. I want my horrible painful life to end now. Not another second or minute longer. NOW. I always think, why can’t I randomly get shot, why can’t I have cancer, why can’t I get in a car accident, why can’t I be one of those people who dies tragically young. If I could switch bodies with some one with cancer so they could live and I would die I would do it. I want this over now, I want my life done, finished and thrown out. I don’t fucking want to live! I don’t want help or to get better I want death, a quick easy death. I wanna sleep forever. Be in a nice sweet dream forever.
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I’m glad I’m not the only one who wishes I could have cancer or something of that nature.
I have wished for years and years that once I feel asleep that I wouldn’t wake up. And here I am today. Wish leaving this place was a whole lot easier. Wish I didn’t have to do it myself.
Alot of us and probably hundreds of millions on earth want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I always thought I was the only one who wished that too. I mean it would be a hell of a lot easier to switch with someone else so they could live the life they want and I could die in peace. I wouldn’t have to feel selfish for taking my own life and I could save someone elses.
I think one of the reasons I’m still here is that I want to be able to say one day to myself and to those who have pretty much fucked up my life that I did it; I survived this hell. Can you imagine how amazing that would feel?
This week I was getting tested for cancer the whole time I really wanted to happen! I really wanted skin cancer so I smoke again and be happy
I wish I could just donate away the whole of my body while I was still alive..I wish they could utilise my blood,organs and whatever that is inside in any better way. Not only would it spare and free my consciousness from the world but also would it fulfil another ones wish to live further by tranpslanting my organs to someone in need.
Similar. Every year on my birthday when I blow out the candle the wish is that I die or I get cancer so I can die young. Been wishing that since 12ish. I’m 23 now I still pray as hard as I can every day that I can die. I don’t want to waste another breath or another minute here.