This post contains a single curse word, I try to keep my posts clean, but for the sake of accuracy I have used a single word, I’ve starred it out. I apologize if the language offends, and if this post must be removed, I understand.
I dreamt of my love today, I laid down for a 2 hour nap, I closed my eyes and she was all I saw. I dreamt she had moved on, there was no room for me in the picture any more. A lot of it is foggy (as most dreams are for me) but I clearly remember being on my knees in front of her, begging “Give me us last chance, I’m the one you are supposed to be with, no one else. No one can love you like I do, no one will ever f**k you like I did” It was vivid, I remember feeling very hot, pins and needles in my face, clammy hands, swollen cheeks and a tear soaked face. I woke up, and the first thing I did was call her, because everything still felt so real, when she answered she could tell I was distraught from my voice, I told her I just needed to hear her voice, when she asked what was wrong, I told her we would talk about it later, she demanded we talk about it now (maybe she cares about me still?) I told her about the dream my voice getting more and more shaky as I progressed (I have an issue showing signs of weakness, and I felt I was being weak) I think I made her feel uncomfortable because she requested we continued the conversation at a later time, she would call. I’m waiting for it, very anxiously. When we said good-bye on the phone, she called me hun… She never called me that before we broke up… Why now? PErhaps to make me more comfortable? I don’t understand why. I just don’t…
Scissorhands
4 comments
Begging and groveling never works, guilt trips work for awhile “sometimes”, ie; I’m suicidal, I’ll kill myself without you, etc in what ever form they take.
Just because my ex’s had shown some compassion during a break up didn’t equate to “still in love”, yes they care if we take our lives they will have to live with it, so they try at arms length to let us down easy, ………. but they were still on the way out. They may even sleep with us again, yet it more of a pitty or guilt lay.
Relationships come and go, they hurt when they end, but the Pain will pass as long as we let go, do not put yourself back in a position to be hurt further.
Nothing wrong with a mercy f#*k. Especially if a bl*%job gets thrown into the mix.
She never called… I can take a hint.
u remind me of my bestfriend. he is very much like u. in a good way.