I have felt really worthless and unworthy of life for a really long time. I hear so many horrible stories of child abuse and murders and I just want to stop it all. I thought most people were against these things, but I found out it isn’t true. There are people out there who support these things and it really scares and angers me at the same time. I feel like it’s my job to stop it and I can’t I’m just so powerless and stupid and …what’s the point of me being here if I can’t stop bad things from happening to people. I’ve had bad things happen to me but it is nothing compared to what other people especially other kids are going through and I just want to help them. I have tried to end my life and backed down like a wuss every time, which makes me feel worse, I can’t even do that right. I just feel like I need a sign form somewhere that help is coming or that I will be able to help. I was raised to be a Christian but I have shied away from it , even going into not believing at all. BUt now I feel like I just need something to believe in, just something to get me through because I feel like I am not going to make it.
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You’re a very kind-hearted person to want to save everyone else from pain, but unfortunately, that is not possible. What you can do is try to help those that you can, and accept the truth that there are many you cannot. Believe in your own abilities to affect the world, no matter how small your input.
I once tried to believe in God, but I found believing in people and myself to be much more effective.
Education is the key to stopping all these terrible things from happening. Ever thought of becoming a school teacher? They have such precious responsibility, they educate kids about right and wrong and kids sometimes confide in them if they are abused. Its a very important job that needs more people like you with noble intentions.