What is happiness?

Every emotion is hard to describe but there are few which are harder to describe than love and happiness. I, too, have forgotten what happiness feels like and I am working to rediscover it along with my other emotions. I know I must have felt it before, I can remember saying that I was happy but the emotions have since left the memories of those moments.

These past weeks of me life have been naught but a blur. I can not remember what happened.
These past weeks have brought me within in inch of my life. Is that what I wanted to happen?
These past weeks have changed me forever. Only time will tell what will happen.

I have lived without emotions for over 5 years. In 5 years you forget what those emotions felt like. It was around 2 weeks ago when all of that started to change. Some emotions came back and I felt like I was on top of the world for approximately 3 days. I was a little stressed but I felt like I could not be stopped. Then November 1st came crashing down around me. Whatever walls were holding my emotions back had been broken. I almost took my life several times that week. My emotions would change in seconds as if every feeling I had missed over the past 5 years of my life had come rushing out in sequential order. It was the worst week of my life, but I loved it for some reason. I remembered what happiness was during that time. I remembered what sadness was. Those feelings have since gone.