Hi, I’m a sophomore in high school. I guess you could say I had a pretty okay childhood. Most of my time was spent with my grandmother or parents. At the age of five I had a friend, a friend who touched me when I didn’t feel like it, and a friend who didn’t know the word ‘stop’. That part of my life was difficult. But I remained strong, until my parents divorced. I then started to slowly go downhill. I was depressed all the time and I had no one to talk to… then I started to pull out hair, ever so often. But that turned into Trichotillomania. If you don’t know what trich is, it’s a hair pulling disorder, my mom is convinced it’s only a habit, but I know better. I have an area on my head that is thinning and it rapidly changes, it gets better or worse depending on my mood. I have really bad anger management. I just, lose my mind. I become a different person. I don’t think and I just break whatever I can find and I keep going. I have never cut. I have thought about it, but I haven’t gotten that far. I am sure that I have manic-depression and I’m not sure there’s really a cure. If you want me to be honest, I don’t think I’ll make it. I don’t think I will ever want to make it past 18. I just have these feelings sometimes where I want to grab a knife and stab myself until the floor all around me turns a deep sea of red. I’ve had doctors try and help, I have therapists… but they have not helped. I am at this point where I do not know what to do anymore.
I hope my story can help myself, and others.
Thank you for reading
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Hi, I hope you find some peace in your life, high school life can be difficult all by itself.
Your not alone with the issues you mentioned.