Here it goes.

December 10th, 2011by Osol

Does anybody… anybody have any tips for making the pain stop? Everyday for the last year has just been one heartache after another. I have no real friends to talk to, and the only close friend I have lives over 2000 miles away, and I don’t need to burden her already burdened life with my problems. I live in a small town, there’s really no therapists, not that I would go to one anyways. I don’t trust anyone in my family enough to tell them whats going on. I’m not religious, I despise organized religion, and they are all hard-core catholic. I’d just get a lecture of some sort. I’m 21, and been fighting this problem on and off for years. I was doing OK, until I had to move away from my best friend, and the only people I really cared a lot about. Now, I have a few  acquaintances that I see every now and again, and that’s about it. I’m tired of hurting, of struggling through each day. I try to interact with people around my age, but no matter what I always feel like I am just… Different. I don’t know how else to explain it… they all seem normal to me, but somehow I’m… quite separate from them. I don’t know what I’ll find on here. I’m not suicidal… or at least if I am, I’m too stubborn to act on it. I just… want to know of any other way to stop the pain…

Please… Someone. Anyone… Help me…

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