I’m just wondering if maybe anybody else has considered this.
I don’t want to end my life right now. But there was a time when I did. Twice, I came very close. I knew how I was going to do it both times. Neither time did I actually recall changing my mind, but instead realized at some point I’d decided not to. That was three years ago now, and I have not since come so close. But I’ve thought about it.
So here’s what I think-
Once you’ve thought about killing yourself (and I mean really thought about it, like planned it out and made […]
December 2011
I want to die, hang myself.
The universe finally gave me a way out; a small vile full of insulin. Just a few more weeks, and I will finally get some sleep
For most of my childhood and adult life I have had enjoyable and pleasant dreams, however for the past twenty years I have not had one single good dream. I was told that I was probably having “good” dreams but forgetting them by the time I got out of bed. Ten years ago, I bought a small tape recorder and put it on the head of my bed so the moment that I woke up from a pleasant dream I could just reach up and grab it and record what I had dreamed.
I can tell you that for the past ten + years I have […]
DEAR COWARDS; the world aint/never will be full of full rainbows. Idgaf if it is for you, its dark clouds thunder and full of rain here. Im sick of the same old hoes. Im ten ffs, i shouldnt hate myself,cut myself,or hurt myself. BUT I DO. No i aint complainin, im better then that. Just keep in mind, you cowards give me hell
Ummm well I kinda am new.. I once on a while read the post in this page.. and I just wanted to say hi… I don’t really know what to post right now.. but all I can say is that I also have felt this feeling of unending sadness.. Ive committed suicide a number of times.. and never have achieved success. I still feel the same way about my life.. I wish to disappear not remember anything.. Yet for some reason Im still here. I do not feel happy, maybe Im contempt that its not gotten harder, my life. Well I just want to say […]
It wont be easy 2 fully finish this
Or 2 get rid of all my thoughts of my addictions.
I want 2 be done and be free.
I want 2 be happy and i will be.
i am strong and beautiful and will get threw this
now with his help and kisses and comfort
i am 1 step closer 2 being done.
Its a new year and i will start of clean……
I attepted suicide when i had just turned 14 in september… i wrote a song called no regrets and sent it to the one person who has always been there for me. he cried and prayed for me all night.. i was pronounced dead at 3:16 am for a duration of alost 18 minutes, they were able to revive me. the doctors said it was a miracle i survived… and now everytime i say hey to my one friend he says hey my little miracle <3 sadly i still want to die.. but luckily he’s still there for me!!
my dad is an alcoholic he’s been sober since before thanksgiving. This Christmas he started drinking. And has been since. I obviously hatE when he’s like that. Like why does he need to be drinking. Why does he need to start drinking. I hate him. He absolutely had an affect on me and made me how I am. I don’t even understAnd why he started drinking in the first place. I don’t remember him drinking when we still lived in lithuania. Its confusing to me. Its one of the reasons I hate being at home. Especially when he’s like that. Well all in all it […]
ive hurt and cut and overdosed and lots more im 14 and i hate my life everyone hurts me because of the stupid people sayin u have blue waffles yea wen it aint true
The consequences of today are determined by our thoughts & actions of the past. To change your future, alter your thoughts & actions today. There is never a better time then the present.
1.“Action is the foundational key to all success.†– Pablo Picasso
2.“Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.†– Jim Rohn
ie by changing nothing, nothing changes. You can’t expect to be doing the same thing, thinking the same thing and then expecting a differet outcome. ie a positive 2012. We are but the product of our habits & thoughts ~ if they are poor then so […]
To those that have been curious, as a few people asked about my name ….. well it’s a latin phrase ….
Ad Astra ~ means “To The Stars”
Ad Aastra Per Aspera ~ Means “To The Stars Through Difficulty”.
ie the universe was not made to be easy. Keep your chin up people and stay positive in 2012. I wish you all a well, healthier & happier 2012.
It’s not whether people have difficulties, this is a given, rather it’s how we choose to face them, that makes our character and defines us.
Here’s to you …. stay positive & strong.
MOLLY WOPPIT; I need to thank you for saying what you sai ” your too young to die stay with us we are listening” Made me feel better. This whole website does. And you gave me a sweet virtual hug soooo(((((((hug)))))))x3 i also want to thank everyone else for commented. All comments let me clear my mind just a little. I truly believe this hole in my heart will dissapear listening to you guys<3 great day so far !
The last day of 2011…to enter year 2012,..The important Year possibly for mankind..(whether you believe it or a skeptic),
anything could happen, and getting bigger..
Be prepared o humans..
… and the end game is near. It’s like walking into a cave and it keeps getting darker and narrower. I started coming to this conclusion close to a year ago. Like so many others, I had a decent and comfortable life that was turned upside down by the global economic meltdown. I’ve met adversity before and it does not scare me – I’m kind of a “roll with the punches” kind of guy.
A little background for you all – I’ve been married and divorced 3 times – 2 kids – a girl and a boy, each with a different mother. The girl is an […]
Ok, so apparently, being suicidal is a bad thing.
They approach my “condition” with scorn.
They ask me, “Why can’t you just be normal like everyone else?”
They throw pills in my face and tell me to get better… As if it was that simple. LOL… I’m a waste of space in this morbid world, and, pills aren’t going to make it all better. So far, they haven’t. And it’s been quite some time now. 🙁
Honestly, I don’t wanna be like this… ‘I am (in the words of Korn) clearly broken and no one knows what to do’~ >_>
So apparently, being suicidal is a […]
Help! I feel trapped in this human body & physical world existence/limitation, is there a way to escape out from it?
I often feel like I can’t relate to this material, physical earthly world anymore, and the majority of people here on this planet earth.
I often feel like there must be something MORE than this limited existence of our human body,
or I’m afraid if it’s all my human’s “creative” wishful-thinking and made-up escapism feeling/story..
does my human brain playing all these tricks on me, or it is really REAL: that there are indeed something much MORE that I can access/connect/tap into?..but I just need to find HOW to do it?..
Tell me please: is there really something MORE that I can do and ‘ascend/transcend’ in […]
I don’t want to die, but I’m so scared of feeling this way forever.
Sometimes it’s hard to see the difference between the two.
At the end of the year, and the end of another shitty week I look at my contacts list on my phone and realise that I can’t call anyone without them feeling put out. They will feel like they are obliged to lend some of their time to some low-life scum like me, and at the end of the transaction they will feel like they regretted spending their time doing so.
I have wasted my opportunities at life… and death. Instead of using what I got to end my pain, I wasted it in small doses ‘recreationally’ and ended up just prolonging the pain… Though I […]