Still Looking

December 12th, 2011by Erisa

This is going to be short, I’m kind of tired. My mom tells me to open my eyes and see how beautiful life is… well… my eyes have been open and I’ve been looking. Actually, I’ve been searching, but the more I see… not the world it self but what I have offered in these 20 years of my exsitance… I’ve made it worse. I don’t deserve to be here and it seems like I find more reasons to call it quits than to actually continue…

I don’t know. I wish I didn’t feel like this. No one should ever “welcome” death… the way I do. it’s a very awful feeling. One should go out and live life but why can’t I just pull the strength and do it myself? I know it’s there… somewhere…  Thanks for listening.

-K

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