Well, not going to school certainly made me feel better. It also makes me feel like a lump of fermenting dough. Guess you can’t be happy no matter what you do.
My favorite type of weather tonight. Windy with a hint of thunder. The sunlight in the apartment made me feel worse. Storms expect less of you.
Deceiving my parents has worked well so far, but… What do i do if they ask about my school results? And what about next semester? I’d construct another suicide plan, but since the last one went to bits, i can’t think of anything. It’s easier to think of more trivial things, besides of how useless i am. It’s amazing how true it is.
It’s so wonderfully windy out there. Pitch black and windy.
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Anychance you live in the UK same weather here. I love the rain they say when it rains something good happens.
Its kind of annoying about grades as parents can make you feel worse if you get low ones. I have a lot of spare time so instead of acting too depressed i work on school. I get top marks. I cant drop the hint about depression- can i?
Nah, Sweden. Guess there’s “rubbish” weather everywhere at the moment. You can work on school to look less depressed? Funny how everyone seem able to do that. Except me. If anything, school makes me depressed. Don’t really want to think about that right now. I’m just going to enjoy this feeling of detachment for as long as it lasts.
You write excellent English.
I’m an excellent actress and everyone knows me as the clumsy freak whos a terrible singer. | have a habbit of acting childish when depressed so people see me as a happy person. People often do this but the problem is when reality hits them they fall even more depressed.
You sound like me when im in a perspective mood (dissoactive disorder) I tend to read mystery or sci fi books in that phase keeps me distracted for a while. Or i watch the snow i research the web or i….i think you get the point.
Kinda ^_^ Right now I’m watching Smallville from scratch… But i guess I’ve always been like this? Always reading books. Fantasy books. Nothing else, really. Maybe a hint if sci-fi… Mm…
Wind’s stopped :\
I agree its a better universe to live in, a lot better then the reality.
Its moved onto rain here. Lots of rain and i love it. Like a million drums beating.
It’s raining here too. Too soft for sound, though. It’s like enlarged mist <3 Maybe it'd be wonderful to be that tiny?
That would be cool. A different world where one tiny room is a palace would be the life. Its cold raining and windy. Beautiful weather like a symphony with the gale whistling the drums beating and the cold wanting your attention. Beautiful.
Ranen good here in ireland too nd i love it. Its absolutely freezing out with rain batteren most of the day which means no people around so u can walk for ages and see no one love it. A i love smallvill the best were the first couple of series.
I lived in the countryside in Ireland and its beautiful in the rain- a whole different universe where no one lives. Here in England more people are out in the rain then the sun!
A pity ya had to leave ireland man no place like it
Not much of a pity if you could leave some of the pain behind.
My comments gone into moderation so in other words. It was time for a new start, but it did end up being worse.
Hm…?
Sorry changed my username in case your confused about that.
So who are you?
Sorry about that. Mood swings dissoactive disorder. I just feel like doing random things in case you never got it I was behind the mask. I’ll put it back to normal now.
Ah. Got it. Makes sense now.
The weathers turning more funny now. Sunny and snow to foggy and rainbows. Well thats English Weather for you.