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by invisible_me18
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Most of the times I feel like I say the wrong things at the wrong time and cause more problems in my life! I feel like I can’t do anything right! I have to pretend I am happy most of the times! I don’t wanna pretend anymore! I have almost commited suicide 4 times already :/ every time I try either a friend runs in and stops me or a thought of a loved one! I don’t wanna go through hell anymore 🙁 so many terrible things have happened in my life! I can’t take it anymore! I don’t know how much longer I can pretend and think nothing ever happened! I don’t know the person inside or out of me anymore! I lay and cry just thinking of all that has happened! And so far I have thought maybe it will get better! Ya every damn day gets worse and worse! I don’t know what to do anymore! I am lost! I wanna run away and never come back! No one will care if I am gone! I wanna go in a ditch and die :(((((

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adastra 1/3/2012 - 3:42 am

Well hey invisible … hmm okay …..i agree with you ….. you shouldnt have to pretend ….so why do it?

Very happy to chat more if you like or think we an help …?

Stay well okay …

invisible_me18 1/3/2012 - 9:17 pm

I am not sure how much longer I can take this!! :/ everyday it seems to get worse and worse! just one person I know really loves me but he is so far away :/ my family treats me like crap and ughhh :/ I cry everyday thinking how much longer am I really gonna put up with this? Its come to a point where I am depressed all the time!! I am going anorexic and to this point where it got so bad u can see and feel the rips in my back and you can see my spine! and I am a gymnast and this isnt good! but gymnastics is the only thing that has helped me in a way and also my coach! but now he is gone so now I am lost! my mom thinks i have problems! maybe I do but I cant tell her! we arent close enough! my father died when I saw young so I just dont get life anymore! it has treated me like crap my whole life! I dont know what to do! I have fucked up my life enough that I really not sure if I should keep it going!

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