I wish I wasn’t

Well I’m not sure how much more I can take. The feelings of everyone person hating me for anything is hurting so bad that it feels like I can’t even breathe. The verbal abuse at home and at work is just to much. I know that sounds stupid but it’s constant all day every day. The one person I thought would always be there for me is starting to think I want to stay and live with it. But that’s not true I just don’t have anywhere to go and to think about trying to live with her would be to much on her. When she told me that it really hurt. These are the times when I think I have no one left what’s the point, it’s time to give up. My family hates me and the people I work with can’t stand me why don’t I let it end so I can’t cause myself to believe there is good anywhere out in this world. Death just feels like it’s the only way for me to have peace. And no one will ever hurt me or make me feel like I hate myself anymore. I haven’t slept in 4 days now and I’m so tired but I can’t sleep because I hurt to much and the tears never seem to stop. There are time I wish I had kill myself when I was younger if my sister hadn’t come in my room when she did I wouldn’t even be here to write this and I wish I wasn’t. )-;