It’s been awhile since I’ve posted…My holiday season was relatively calm..as I took off from work, and was off from school…mostly drama free except the ever present arguments with the asshole I’m forced to relate to as his daughter. But I digress.
School is back in full swing…in addition to more drama at work (seriously, I work with a bunch of 50 year old catty bitches in a freaking cafeteria…)
Needless to say, I’m already stressed the fuck out…looking for jobs, internships, working, going to school, dieting (i have a wedding to attend in june…needing to lose weight), and attempting to maintain my end of relationships. I’ve got so much on my plate it gives me a migraine just thinking about it. Â I’m still seeing a therapist…and I think that this semester (as a time frame for myself) I want to conquer my demons…maybe I can sleep better at night if I am not constantly having nightmares and flashbacks of being sexually harrassed. I don’t even know what my primary purpose in writing this post was…I think I just wanted to ramble on and vent for a little.
I had tried after last semester ended to be placed on anti-anxiety meds, but the one time I mention suicide or depression, my primary care doctor completely flipped out on me and demanded that I be sent to a psychiatric facility (the song “Institutionalized” comes to mind) because I can’t take care of myself, blah blah blah. I’m kind of disappointed that I didn’t get on any meds…maybe if I had been on them I wouldn’t feel like a neurotic mess…You know, I watched the notebook tonight with the intention of “I needed a reason to cry” and yet I still feel like crying…so my stupid brain is literally thinking against my will of reasons that would bring me to tears…even though my Superego (or whichever part of the id,ego,or superego is responsible for) is slapping me silly saying how NOT true my thoughts are. Fuck my head hurts. I could really use a hug…or a drink…or heavy drugs…something to take the edge off.
Stupid question, unrelated to the websites primary purpose…if anyone can give me an intelligent answer I’d appreciate it.
So, I bought some frozen dinners the other day, stashed them in my trunk and went to my dear boyfriends house to do laundry. mmmm…about 3 hours later I get home, realize I forgot to put the frozen dinners in his freezer. I am not sure if they melted all the way or not, but I could smell food. So now they are sitting in my freezer…long story short, my question to the reader(s) is, are they still edible or should I return them?
Anyway…I have to be preparing for a not-s0-exciting day tomorrow…I should at least try to get 5 hours of sleep. I shall return to you tomorrow…hoping to read comments detailing your answer to my question, and some sort of hope. anything to get the edge off.