It makes you want to just lie there and let the waves of sad hopelessness wash over you and soon your face is damp with hot tears dribbling down your neck and this makes you even more upset because you hate being such a wreck and you wish you could be happy and normal but you can’t because your stupid feelings are dragging you into a vortex of self-hate where thoughts of death tantalize you at every moment and you’re seriously thinking of grabbing the bottle of nail  polish remover on your desk that says HIGHLY TOXIC on it and just chugging it all down and letting all the angsty pain ebb away into calm nothingness.
But you can’t. You’re too chicken to do it.
You’re just that much of a weak-assed little wimp.
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go hit up your homegirls and go hit the arcade =)
The best advice I have is to find something to take your mind of the pain for a little while. For me, I read this website. Feeling the pain of other people was different from feeling my own pain and it gave me a distraction. Maybe read a book, watch a movie, anything to take your mind off the pain for a little while. Even writing about it seems to give a different perspective and a type of purpose in life.
Then you can deal with your pain in manageable chunks. I cannot tell you how to solve whatever problems you are having, but try not to dwell on them. Maybe you don’t even know why you are sad (and it is something I couldn’t figure out for a long time). Think about your problems in little segments, maybe even 10 seconds at a time before letting yourself become distracted by something else.
Not doing it is a sign of strength, not weakness. And you are strong to be here where you have an outlet. <3
when you feel like you’re on the edge , just scream as loud as you can. let it out. at the top of your lungs until your eyes feel like they may pop out. scream for 5 minutes straight if need be. just let it out. you’ll be surprised how much better you’ll feel afterwards. in fact if you have the chance scream a few times a day. I used to scream into pillow for a muffling effect so the neighbors didn’t think I had gone mad. 🙂 always felt a little better after.