I can’t get my feet up off the edge, I kinda like the little rush you get, When you’re standing close to death, Like when you’re driving me crazy….

this is what i sent to lauren earlier, it might not make much sense to your guys but its basically wha happened to me today….:/ <3

‘Ok…. So Mr Gregory tried to make me talk to Una when you left, I refused to step into her office, and then Lydia turned up…. I started to break down at this point. We all then went to sirs office and Miss Gentry was there, she said that if it was just about earlier then I should just go back to lesson, Lydia walked me to art and asked Miss Glover if she could take me to talk about something sensitive, she agreed and we went and sat in the sixth form center (I love it in there) for the whole of last period. At the end of the day we attempted to actually talk to sir, but Miss Gentry and Una were there and Miss Gentry just said that I should go home because he had a meeting, me and Lydia then went and got my bracelets and we were going to go into town for a bit, I called my dad to ask him to tell my mum and he just had a go at me. I started crying and then Lydia walked me home…. She stayed at my house for a bit while we talked a lot, she even offered for me to stay the night at hers…. And we also read the letter. It says things like I’ve told Miss Sancaster and Mr Gregory that i was going to kill myself and tried to get you to help me, If a doctor doesn’t see me by Friday then social services will get involved. So my dad said he is taking Monday off to take me, when in sixth form Lydia had agreed to come with me…. He wouldn’t have that though…. And now I’m really depressed and don’t really want to be here, at home. Also when we got my bracelets back Miss Sancaster and Miss Gentry came out of the corridor students aren’t allowed to use, Miss Sancaster briefly talked to me but Miss Gentry basically ignored me……….I love Lydia so much….♥♥♥.’

People: Lydia- Friend, who i love. Mr Gregory- Teacher and head of year. Miss Sancaster- School Liason Officer. Miss Gentry- Also Head of year ? . Miss Glover- My Art Teacher.

Una=Miss sancaster.

Not exactly how i imagined i would start my weekend, Miss Sancaster and Damon ( another school liason officer) went to my house and gave my mum a letter saying about the whole social services thing and what was going on with me and lauren, i basically told her that i have had sick thoughts of Euthanasia, involving her…..i know its a sick thing to think about….

<3.