I have been irritated off and on like a bipolar fuck, no patience in the world mainly because my dad’s too much of a tight ass to let me spend one fucking day with my cousins because their mom is never home yet my other aunts and uncle live there too but no getting through that moron unless another adult tells him that. He told me he needed me to earn his trust again after one of my cousins snitched on me and Alex about smoking weed, apparently together yet we never did. I cant believe this shit. I am angry as fuck and just wanna smoke some weed yet i dont have any way pf getting it since im mot a chronic smoker so i have only done it once every few months. Best to say that im bipolar, unless theres something where im normal one instant and get pissed off aother unless this damn video game black ops is the cause of this intese rage.
I really want to kill myself. I now came to reality knowing i am in love with my cousin yet she already has a lot of other guys wanting her too so its normal for her to feell wanted. Fuck this is a laggy fone. I have no where to vent and talking is shit because if you bring up religion or peeve me off a bit i will rage on again. Fuck this.
I need antidepressants and anything to keep myself calm. My mom bought me a shitty headset for my ps3 that wont connect for christmas and she told me after reading some posts awhile back that she wants me to stay alive and thats why she wants to buy me shit. I am a spoiled piece of shit and ignorant of everything. Just let me fuckig die. I think i will starve myself again, i think i starved myself before for the same reason. Just to hurt my fucking self. Self-pity repels others and lessens ur worth or some shit like
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Try this as an experiment ….play any game you like and as soon as you stuff up ……ask yourself or at least be aware, of what feelings you are experiencing.
Yes games affect ‘the user’ ~ thats been well and truly proven over and over.
People (ie parents) spoil their children because they love them ~ maybe show some appreciation?
Take care if i dont chat with you again.
I try to appreciate my shit i get but i know i dont deserve it. My moms trying to help me but i dont want that help and as a mother ot hurts even me pushing her away but i dont deserve shit and would rather die.
Why don’t you think you deserve things?
Grown up life is mainly about two things ~ facing responsibilities, and being mature to accept them.
Start by treating yourself better … and also treat others better.
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here is a not so good life in an equation skills sets & attitude < ten problems
if you want to talk stuff thru pls do but im not here much longer but if u look at my past posts u will find my email