My miserable life.

January 7th, 2012by Dude

I don’t know why but recently I do want to just disappear.  Recently I have so much stresss from for finding a new job.  Also my wife is not helping at all.  She works, but she keeps on pushing me.  To a point  i just want to end it.  Sometimes I just want a divorse and sometime I just want to end my life because of so much stress.  I don’t know what I should do.  Sometimes I pray that I won’t wakeup in the morning.  That my life will end in my sleep.  I don’t want to kill myself, because I think its wrong.  So I was hoping that it would be just my time to end it.  Again I had a great life, its just in the past 2 years it has very difficult.  I don’t feel I get much encouragement like your doing a good job.  I just feel like more and more pressure with anyone saying your doing a good job.  I had a big argument with the wife, and she is sleeping in another bed.  When we argue she always some hurtful things.  What’s worst of it was my birthday a couple of days ago.  You know my colleagues at work treated me better for my birthday than my wife.  That makes me feel horrible.  Is this what life is like.  Do I really want to continue this way.  Should I just get a divorse, maybe my life would be better.  Or is it just the easy way out.  I really feel like I have a stack of bricks on my back with no one to help me.  At the end I am alone with someone who only thinks for herself.  I should have thought better since many of my old friends that your better than her.  That will be too hard to please.  The funny thing is that I love her.  But I don’t know if I can take this for the rest of my life.  God help me.  Any posts would be appreciated.

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