Hi, I’m a fifteen year old girl and I have been through quite a bit in my life.. I’ve been through being homeless, abused, raped, molested, bullied at school, addicted to drugs and alcoholism. I’m going through a lot at this moment as well, I need someone to talk to because all the people I know are drunks or druggies. I’m tired of being around this, I’ve been living around drunks and druggies my whole life. Now I just lost everything because of drugs and alcohol. I did try to be sober a couple of times but I just keep getting sucked back into it.. I want it stop so badly.
I lost the one person thatÂ meansÂ so much to me, I don’t know what I’ll do when she isn’t here. Not to long ago I was in the hospital because I tried to kill myself. I was at school, it was my last class and they started to talk about peopleÂ committing suicide because of being bullied so then it made me think about my life. I pretty much raised myself my whole life, I’ve been abused until I was twelve, rapped when I was four years old, molested until I was twelve, been drinking, smoking and doing drugs since I was eight years old, I live in a group home, not living with my adopted mom that I love so much. My thoughts wereÂ interrupted by the school bell.
As I was walking out of the school by theÂ cafeteria doors, I was still thinking about my life, what I’ve been through but not living with my adopted mom hurt me a lot. When I was walking back to the group home (fifteen minutes away from school) I was saying to myself that living away from my adopted mom is to much pain for me to handle. By the time I got to the group home it was 3:42pm, when I got inside I just went straight to my room and grabbed the bottle ofÂ TylenolÂ and headed straight to the bathroom. I was pacing back and forth for about ten minutes then I just grabbed the bottle and sat on the floor taking all the pills that were left in the bottle. I was in there for about half an hour so one of the girls in the group home knocked on the door and asked if I was okay, I said I was even though I wasn’t. The girl went downstairs and told one of the staff that I was in the bathroom for a while so the house parent came to the door and asking me if everything was okay. I started to cry, I didn’t respond to her, I just kept crying. She kept on saying open the door but I didn’t move from were I was.
She finally got the door open after fifteen minutes of trying. She saw me sitting there and crying, she didn’t notice the bottle at first because it was in my hands. Once she saw the bottle she started to yell to one of the staff to call 911. She held me until the paramedics arrived, I wish she didn’t let go because no one held me like she did in so long. I don’t really remember being in theÂ ambulance much because I was so dizzy. All I remember is the house parent rubbing my head and the paramedic person asking me a lot of questions.
When we got to the hospital I had to drink this charcoal shake thing, it was really disgusting to drink. it made me vomit a few times then I fell asleep. When I woke up I saw my adopted mom there, I started to cry, it wasn’t a sad cry though.. it was a happy cry, I was so glad to see her. She stayed with me until I had to leave the hospital. The first three days were bad because I couldn’t leave my bed cause I was on suicide watch. I could only leave the bed to go to theÂ wash-room. I was there for 5 days.
Now I have lost the most important person in my life, she gave up on me. I don’t know what I’ll do when she moves, I’ll be so lost. She made me realise what I was doing with my life. She was always there for me when I needed someone to talk to but now she’s gone.
hey darling, the fact you have surivived so much tells me you are pretty strong so thats one positive. If yiu ever want or need to talk please feel free ~ just add my nicname here to email@example.com or if u prefer firstname.lastname@example.org.
Hope you are well in the meantime.
hey darling, the fact you have surivived so much tells me you are pretty strong so thats one positive. If yiu ever want or need to talk please feel free ~ just add my nicname here to 389@gmail or if u prefer 389@hotmail
Hope you are well in the meantime.
Losing someone that means the world to you is one of the hardest and most difficult pains that anyone will ever go through, and until someone goes through that, they can’t relate. The negative experiences that you had undergone at such an age were very scarring, and those are wounds that will never go away, mentally and emotionally. I wish I could give you a hug right now, because you seem to need that comfort more than anything. Battling with alcoholism and addiction of any sort is one of the hardest things to break, because it offers such a synthetic type of comfort that is really relieving, at the time; and the problem with those addictions is that it’s only a temporary fix, not a permanent one, you constantly need to go and search for the next big fix, and that’s a constant sturggle, and it takes a strong person to get over the many mountains that come along with getting past addiction. I am here for you, I want you to be able to talk to me and vent about whatever may be on your mind, you’re at such a crucial age in life, and one of the hardest ages to overcome challenges, sometimes we all just need someone to be there for us and talk to us whenever we’re having a horrible day, and even to talk to about the good things that happen to us. Please, feel free to contact me if you ever get bored or down and need someone to talk to when you’re at those weak points, I’m only an email away. Take care– here’s my email: email@example.com
I’m 15 too. I would love to help you and give you someone to talk to. You can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org if you want to.
I Appreciate The Offer.
Wait.. I Can Add You On Email?
You sure can. either gemail or hotmail. I always use the same hotmail addy for msn.
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i ment love but just i know what your going through and if you share your story more, people will realize hey…we are not alone.
You can definitely add me on email. 🙂
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