So after I made that post, I had trouble actually falling asleep, so I watched an episode or two of Futurama. It`s a pretty good show, I would recommend it. Anyway after I finally eventually got to sleep, I had a pretty fucked up dream. Though people dream every night, I (they) rarely remember my (their) dreams. I guess this was one that stuck out.
The first thing I remember was going into this smaller type of sort of `home` restaurant (I guess..) and asking for a job. This woman (Maybe..) in her 50`s ish told me that there was already a dishwasher and didn`t need another. She was something of a bigger lady. I talked to the dishwasher and her and eventually something was worked out where he would take a week long vacation and I would take over to make some money. The thing is that the job starts early in the morning at around 8. It was already pretty late and I am just not a morning person so I guess I decided to stay there for the night, or for the week. I`m not sure what the conditions for rent were.. Whatever. I guess I had moved my stuff in there too, because for some reason I was trapped in that place. Maybe I was in a completely different city than my parents, and maybe I didn`t have my own place. It`s not terribly important I guess, dreams don`t have to be logical. It`s more the feeling that it gives you. It`s not how you get there, rather it`s getting there itself that is important. Anyway, so I`ve set the scene.
Well, I guess I remember one part in between but nothing super significant seemed to happen. As I was about to take a shower, the dishwasher told me not to smoke pot in the shower. …I don`t know. I`ve done it a couple times in real life and it feels amazing. Why something so silly is in this nightmare I don`t know. My dreams can get pretty absurd. Anyway he said that he did it a couple times and because there`s a hole or something in the shower the smell escaped and the owner got pissed off.
What happened sometime after was that I basically raped. I wasn`t anally raped, but if any of you have seen `throat fucking` porn, that was what happened to me. Those that haven`t seen it, you probably get the idea. I saw this from a 3rd person; I`m not sure whether I saw an image of me being raped or whether it was like a video, kind of. Sometimes in dreams you just know something happened to you, or you just know something is a certain way. I think I assumed in the dream that he was only starting off with the throat fucking and would go for more next time. So yeah.
The woman wasn`t really a woman, but it turned out to be some sort of terrifying, brutish thing. It was some sort of monster. Not monster in a comical way though, it was really the stuff of nightmares. I don`t think I ever got a good look at it. It was sort of a faceless morphing thing, maybe. It seemed to have some masculine traits, but it also had feminine ones too. Though it had a penis, I don`t think it was a male. I don`t think it had a gender
I`m a pretty skinny guy so this thing was a lot bigger than me. Like I mentioned earlier, for some reason I was trapped in the house with the thing. I remember fearing for my life and talking to it. The whole time thinking that if I fought back it would kill me, even though I knew that it would probably kill me eventually. Eventually I threw caution to the wind and started taking swings at it, and trying to hit it with objects around the room. I forget which objects exactly. It was just laughing at me and either blocking the hits or brushing them off like they were nothing.
That`s the last thing I remember. Pretty messed up.
I like reading others’ dream journals. lol Btw, it’s been years since you were here. Are you still here? OperationCloud in the blind? Please copy..