I love You, my Girls :*

Things been fucked up more than ever. My boyfriend still can’t show any of warm feelings, acting like a snowman, can’t even make himself tell that he misses me and so on.. So finally i told him, that i’d rather choose not to have him, than having him like that. I asked him not to write me, not to call me, not to find me anymore..except he will find some feelings.. I just couldn’t take that coldness anymore.

My friend called at the same time, i was cryin.. so She took a food, bottle of wine, Marlboro and came up.. Feeded me, drunk me, poison me and talked. Another friend came with another bottle and just was with me.. I was lonely some time ago, but they were with me all the time. Just was busy. Truly friend we can see in disasters. They are. I love my girls so much… So much.. They say they will be with me in each step. But they couldn’t give me advice.. One say “find a lover..” another say “i know You more than You know Yourself, You gonna make it and He loves You”… Really no good advice. At least they are with me.

And i miss my bf so much.. and i love him so much.. But feeling hurted every day is too much.. He has to stop these shits and remember that love is more important than some stupid little shits over here..

I hope he doesn’t hate me… 🙁