It’s Thursday. Tuesday I felt strong, happy, like I was making some progress. Wednesday I felt like I was unloved. Today, I feel utterly hopeless. I don’t know why I can’t just be okay. I feel like I have been through enough. Why can’t my pain just end? I don’t understand why one day is so great and the next is hell. I wish some one could just come and make everything better.
To quote some lyrics, “I want to come out of the dark but breaking away is so hard. Just show me the way. Show me which way to go. Can’t do this by myself. Don’t know how I should play the cards that I’ve been dealt. Can anybody help? Is anybody listening? Can anybody answer my prayers? Please say yes. Does anybody feel the same?Â And is there anybody who cares? Life’s unfair!”
I want so hard to be better for my friends, for my family, for myself. But every time I make some kind of progress, something happens that makes all of that progress go away and I just feel drained. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m screaming for help but no one can hear me. Which brings up the questions: Is anybody listening?