lost faith in…. everything

My parents have been going through a messy divorce. Found out my dad was having an affair but he ended it. there was a trial. my mom wanted a restraining order on my dad so he wouldnt be able to see her or my little brother. she said he was dangerous. he’s not dangerous. i have people who have only known my family for probably two years trying to tell me that i dont know my dad at all and even worse that they do. i do know my dad. he ended the affair, told my mom about it but mom lost her mind. she’s been making up so many absolutely rediculous things that i know for a fact did not happen and are not true. no one will listen to me or my dad. my mom wont listen to me. i cant go home cuz people wont let me. i miss my old life so badly. its gone now and i miss it. i miss my dogs. my puppies. i miss my mom even though she doesnt. i miss my brother and my dad. i feel so terrible because of my boyfriend. he means so much to me i know he does. but all the things that have been happening have been draining me. i feel like im not capable of giving the love that he deserves and that he needs. hes been gone for so long. i miss him so much. hes in the airforce. hes the most amazing person that ive ever met all i want is to have him back. but i cant give him everything he needs and deserves. i feel so empty and everything hurts all the time so bad. i just want it to stop. i need to make it stop. i need help i think . i need him and i need my family but its all gone. and nobody cares whats happening. nobody helps. i’ve lost faith in humanity, in religion, in myself, in everything. in everything. nobodys here to help nobody cares about whats happening because nobodys doing anything about it. i want to make it stop. i want to stop it. please please please i need help to know some good