My life is worthless

My name is Taylor. I’m 17 years old. And I’m ready to go…  I’ve been bullied since I was 9. And even before that I always had trouble making friends. I have Asbergers Syndrome, and thus its painfully hard for me to talk to people. I’ve been to about 11 schools. I kept dropping out and going switching schools. I couldn’t handle the bullying. But the thing is, even though the setting changed the story never did. I always got picked on and left out. Id come home crying everyday. In 9th grade the bullying hit a peak. I went to a small private school then, and I was told everyone hated me. I got called psycho, and ugly, and told everyone hated me. I got so suicidal and depressed the school threw me out, because I wasn’t a good influence in their perfect world. I went to a public school after that. Started the 9th grade over cause my grades were in the toilet… Almost 3 years passed and I left there too. I wasn’t bullied.. But I was so lonely. I didn’t have a single friend and I ate lunch in the bathroom everyday. Now I’m doing really basic work at home. College is just about out of the question. I don’t always like being at home. I have a really bad relationship with my dad. My sister has a lot health problems and has had to be hospitalized long term more than once. We ate thanksgiving at the Ronald McDonald house this year. I used to feel forgotten by my family too.. I think they started noticing me after my addiction to cutting myself got worse. But it’s too late… I have dealt with severe depression for so many years. I also have OCD and bad anxiety that causes panic attacks. I’m alone almost all the time.. I have no friends, no future, but most of all no hope. The only thing keeping me here was my family, but I know they’ll move on. I hate every thing about myself. I’m just empty now, I am nothing. And I just want to go. I wish I wasn’t scared.