I am a girl. I feel like I should be a boy. I feel like i’m not living my life to the fullest because of this. I feel uncomfortable everywhere I go. School, the store, even in my own home. I don’t talk to many people. I’m shy and collective. I feel like if I was a boy, i wouldn’t be so shy and everyone would actually love me. I would have more friends at school. Its extremely depressing and embarrasing. I don’t dress as a boy so you can quit thinking the word “dike” now. I get up at five every morning to straighten my hair and put makeup on. I feel like ive been treated unfairly. I don’t like to shop or do anything a “regular” girl would. I need a way to cope with this. Ive put this feeling off for 16 years and im so fed up. Sometimes I feel like life isn’t worth living for. The uncomfortable feeling is eating away at me. I need help.
Hey I have not personally experienced this, but a friend from school is transgendered. We went to a get opressive boarding school where he was forced to be a “girl.” He managed to survive, move away from his parents who couldn’t accept him, and finally begin his transition.
What you’re experiencing doesn’t mean you’re a bad person or anything, and it doesn’t mean you’re mentally ill, it means you believe you were born with the wrong body and that’s all that means. You’re not alone. I’ll message my friend and ask for some good online trans communities if you want 🙂
Thank you so much! that’d be great if you could ask your friend. I’m glad im not alone. This really is not a good feeling, you’ve opened my eyes though and i really appreciate it(:
thetrevorproject.org its a lgbt specific suicide prevention site.
<3 this is no reason to give up on life. Its going to be really hard, but its more common than you'd believe.