I’m new to this. I’ve been researching things concerning suicide. I’ve been depressed for 2 years. I have no friends. And Im ugly,and no one likes me. I’m not saying that just to make myself feel bad, it’s the truth. If I could, I would type 100 facts about no one does.this is my only post on here. Because today is my last day to live. I can’t take it no more. I blame it all on school. All i asked for was to be homeschooled, but…looks like no one listened. Good bye fellow “friends” enjoy this so called “wonderful” life. Peace.
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May I ask what you don’t like about going to school? If it’s to do with not having friends, is there no one you can talk to at all? Sometimes it can help to change schools, but this in itself might be stressful, and of course, I don’t really know your situation.
LilBear
I can’t talk to no one. And no my parents won’t let me switch schools. I don’t even want to switch schools. I want to be homeschooled. I have social anxiety and I want to be home schooled. Ive been asking for a year now but no one listens to me.
Hey musicpanda. Well i know what your going through. But the best way to have friends is to be a friend. Anyone who has enough common sense will know that looks do not matter it is what the person is like. Social anxiety can be annoying. Have you been diagnosed with that or is it self-diagnosed. If self i recommend that you go to the doctor just to get some drugs off them which calm down anxiety. They really do help and you will be able to talk to others and have friends again like you one did.
Take Carex
I have social anxiety, so I am able to relate in some level (If that thought helps). But if you let yourself become accustomed to avoiding people rather than going out of your comfort zone, it won’t help the anxiety. It’s incredibly difficult to strike up a conversation with someone when it’s so much easier to just stay quiet, but like Shadows said, “the best way to have friends is to be a friend.” If someone’s honestly kind to you and stuff, the natural thing is to return the kindness. The people that treat you depending on your looks really aren’t worth trying to make friends with.
LilBear
Thank for the help guys. But this is what ive Been hearing :/ I just wanna be homeschooled. Last night I asked my mom to let me stay home today, and she said no. I was so scared to go because we had to work in groups and I knew that no one would work with me. So I didn’t fall asleep lay night. And I have a huge cut on my leg. I think I need to get those anxiety pills from the doc. but if I do, my dad will say no, and then my brothers and sister will laugh at me forever.
Is there maybe a counselor at your school or even a teacher who you could talk to about your anxiety? If you don’t feel able to say it, you could write them a note. They might be able to explain it to your parents in a way they understand? I realise your school might not work in these ways though.
I agree with Lilbear a counciller, or teacher might be a good idea to head to especally to ask for anxiety pills. They wont get you them but will make it acessible. You can not let fear ruin your life, you have to take control of your life. It is yours not your siblings or parents. I’m sorry your suffering, but cutting doesn’t help either. When you speak to the counciller tell them everything. You might be afraid of you parents reaction but you will find that they will understand when spoken to by an adult… its an adult thing.
No my parents won’t understand anything. They are messed up. My dad told me if he finds out that any of us cuts he will lock us in a room with a razor blade and let us cut till we die. And last time my mom found out that I was depressed from an adult she yelled at me for WEEKS, and she wouldn’t stop. They don’t care about me. And they’ve turned all the teachers and counsilors against me. It sounds wrong but it’s true.
I’m sorry :/ But I think it’s really important that you are able to talk to someone about this, because even if you did get to be home-schooled, it wouldn’t be helping with anything else either now or in the future. Do you know if there’s any place with drop-in sessions that you’d be able to go to? I have to go in a bit, but you can always email me if you want to vent or just have someone to listen to. I’ll try my best to offer suggestions.
lilbear0125@yahoo.co.uk
Take care,
LilBear
Well I think there is other solution than suicide for you… cause you already have a solution to your problem; doing school at home. Have you talk to someone about your suicidal intention ?
It’s possible your parents are just idiots. It happens. Mine were, too. Life is complicated and living life while raising kids is, I’m sure, very difficult.
Regardless, I don’t agree with what they’re doing. I also don’t think homeschooling is a reasonable choice seeing as how
a) your parents are messed up, as you just said.
b) they probably wouldn’t know how / don’t have time / don’t want to
If you’re that close to suicide then you know what…since you’ve got nothing else to lose…
Why don’t you just cut yourself and stop going to school instead? If your dad locks you in your room with a razor blade, call child protection and they’ll move you to a foster home or something.
Obviously this solution sucks and you’d be better off if you just suffer through it. Parents won’t be there forever….it’s almost over.
But if you’re really there…I’m giving you the other choice. Defy your parents and do what you need to do = better than killing yourself.
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