I fucking hate my job. i hate it with a passion. its part time and i dont make money from it. the people there are horrible i cant stand some of them i feel like they all talk shit behind my back. it makes my anxiety worse when i feel like this. i get in trouble for things i didnt do or “didnt do by policy” wtf? why does it have to be so friggin complicated? i get up every morning get on a bus to get there i come at least a half hour early. i clock in by myself on time, i stand on my feet greet every costumer that walks through the door yet my manager gets to sit in the office and read all day and im the one doing something wrong, who woulda thought? whatever.
today just blew my mind out of the water i get there and im written up for too many absences but yet none of them are really my fault because back in december i was hit by a car and was told to take the week off ….and still yet im doing something wrong.
i hate people. i hate the way people stare at me. like i got three heads. seriously call me really immature but take a friggin picture please. i mean am i that ugly? you really have to stare? im not pretty i know that but you dont have to make it worse then it already is. and then you have just ignorant jerks who start with me for no reason. im a shy person i dont talk to you unless you talk to me first but if your gonna bring on confrotation for no reason please dont expect me to be nice.
i wanna be a normal person have a good steady job and go to school thats all i want i strive for it but i feel like no matter which way i turn i hit a brick wall what am i doing wrong here???? dont misunderstand im not the type to complain with no reasoning. ive looked hard for another job i go out everyday im off just to put applications in and i never hear a word back. im broke and in deep debt and im working it off, i rely on no one but myself and i just feel as if im running out of options. my situation my not be as bad as others but im just fed up with everything the bills, my family and my job. i have a bf but he just makes me feel really stupid at times like im uneducated. wtf am i doing wrong? why does god hate me?
is it so hard to ask for a brake from this stress once in a while? idk any thoughts? just any advice ill take it ill never turn down advice just anything to help itd be better then nothing at all :[