Can’t let her see me like that

i think the difference between someone losing someone you love to a disease rather than suicide is,when they kill themselves,the person always wonders what if. you know,what if i had done something different…what if i had said this or whatever,and that never goes away. please don’t give up okay? i’ve been there too,i didn’t go through with it because of my younger siblings,my mom is gone so they need me to help take care of them. i don’t think we realize how important we really are sometimes,you know? to the people that we love? and you should think about the reasons why she loves you so much. i know people say,well,it’s my mom-but trust me,it’s not just that. i bet if you asked her,she would tell you wonderful things about yourself that you don’t always see. i understand the stress thing too,lol,i’ve given my poor dad a run for his money. but trust me-your mom loves you so so much,and no amount of stress is going to ever replace how much she loves you. every kid stressed their parents out. it’s part of the job description. 🙂 but i guarantee your mom wouldn’t trade you for the world. please don’t give up.