even friday seems to long

I can’t feel anything because I feel all of itI met him 3 days after I moved back to seattle. And I have been with him since. But in the year that I have been with him I have hung out with friends 2 days. Other than that I’m alone all the time. And tonite was the last straw. I told him about me picking up my tanks Friday and he told me to shut the fuck up with my baby shit. I didn’t want to admit that he doesn’t love me. He used to like me and I make good money. Whowouldn’t keep around a girl who worships the ground u walk on and gives u money and sex? On demand. I have been used my whole life. Why can’t somebody just want me for me. Why does race have to be so important?. He told me gtime and time again to quit that albino shit every time I do somethin.g he doesn’t like. My mom i s black but this is me and my dad (russian) 3 months before he passed. I have a diverse family so I never saw people for their skin but it seems like all of america doesn’t like me because I can’t be catafgorized