Have you ever…
Laid on your bed at night and just cried?
Cried because you’re stupid, because you just aren’t good enough.
Cried harder when you’ve counted all your flaws from head to toe, to the point where you’re in so much pain, physical pain feels better.
Cried because the things your friends tell you or call you sarcastically actually hurt sometimes…
Cried because your family is dysfunctional, but you’re just a kid who can’t do shit about it.
Cried as they tell you to stop feeling sorry for yourself when a lot of people have it worse than you.
Cried because you don’t want to be a burden and contribute to the mess called your family, so you bottle it all up.
Around people, you’re the happiest ray of sunshine, the life of the party, the one your friends can lean on.
Nobody knows that at night when you’re all alone,
You break down and just cry.
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I really like this. I like this because this really fits me, and how I used to be. I still get this way from time to time. I used to cry myself to sleep a lot, and feel that noone really liked me, and would cry harder. This really touches me because I can relate to this.
Yes I have and imagine being a guy and doing that. We believe we should be stronger than that. I cried harder when I realizEd that apparently people don’t like me with first impressions. They think they should pick on me.
Except I dont put a fake smile on I’m always unhappy, can’t even fake it.
Yeah but not the last part because I havnt got any friends. They just encourage me to kill myself.
That sucks I’m sorry
I wish I could cry
Wow i really though i was the only one! I literally break down every night just sobbing in my pillow. And it for every single one of those reasons, i feel like im not good enough like my family would be netter off w/o me, and my family ALWAYS passes my depression off on felling sorry for myself and tells me some sob story about my cousins in Mexico…atleadt i know im not alone on this…
if they don’t know then there is no chance for reconciliation and healing.
live out loud.
You explained the depths of my pain, I wish i could of said it better. But im sorry and you made me feel like im actually not alone <3 heres my e-mail myshytta2013@hotmail.com
Sounds like you are depressed my friend…sometimes life is just shit and a good cry lets off a bit of steam..somethings we can change others well if your family is dysfunctional welcome to the club…i dont think anyone has a perfect family and life can be cruel but people can only make you feel like shit if you value their opinion so tell them their mouth is moving but you cant hear what they are saying or just walk away when they are in midsentence if its negative shit they soon get the picture..
Wow. Everything you just descrribed is how I am. I am here for you if you ever want to talk.
Let me just say though, even though your family is dysfuntional doesn’t mean that its Your fault. They are just too unwise to realize that you are suffering. I know this because that is how my family is.
Depression is a deep sickness, we all suffer from at some stage of life.
Hang in there.
Holly