Everything hurts too much, especially my heart. My girlfriend self injures (as do I) and has told me that she won’t even try to stop. It’s tearing me to bits. I need to go to a place where I feel nothing. Feeling has become too troublesome for me. I’m scared to death of facing my attacker in court. He will kill me with his eyes.
I have everything set up. I have my note. But as usual I’m too scared to do it.