I’m just really sad

It’s been a rough few years, and not sure when to expect something better. Soon, actually, but it could end up not happening. I finished graduate school and moved in with family to help raise their kid. I didn’t have anything better to do. Of course with the economy, a job was hard to come by. I temped, but that ended. Two years after graduating I got a professional position, but it ended up not working out – for me or them. And now my old boss is trying to hire me. I just got a bad feeling about it as I got ready for bed. I don’t really know what to do if I don’t get the job… Thirty-plus years old with a master’s degree and living with my parents in a small rural town where I don’t know anyone, have no money to go out and no real way of meeting people. I try not to “go to bed,” but rather fall asleep watching TV or playing a video game. When I lie in bed, I think of all the worst things and scenarios. I need to get out of my own head.