It’s funny , i found this site by accident really..
I typed in two words into the google search bar for no reason than to just let someone know.. Â those words? Â “I’m Fucked“.
those words led me here, led me to making an account, led me to write down these words, just to do somthing that may or may not have any meaning.
The two words have been in my mind screaming at me for a long time now, if it was just for a stupid little thing that made me realise that im “very well fucked in this moment”, i dont claim to have depression nor do i claim to know what i am doing right now.
all i know right now is. Â Â im fucked. i can’t see a future, i cant see next year let alone tomorrow, i just don’t know . I somtimes think im just one of those unfortuate people to have been pre-destined to be nothing, have no one and die young.
I dont think im going to tell my tale of a sob story about my child hood, my life or what the fuck may be wrong with me, because it has probly been said before.
now that i think about it, this is really pointless, whats this going to change in my life? i need to explode, to cry, throw a tantrum, become someone else, understand this shit called my life, i need a long hug…. haven’t had that in awhile.
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Hi charlay,
Sorry to hear you’re feeling bad. But welcome to the site anyhow. I think there are some really nice and smart people on here, so at least there’s that.
Take care and hope your situation improves 🙂
I found this site by accident, too… after a particularly bad day. It came up in a Google search. After spending a few months reading, I finally created an account. I hope your situation improves… and I hope you get that hug.
i know the feeling all too well … but as long as you have your health and you don’t have a warrant for your arrest … everything else can be obtained or achieved … but you have to take it one step at a time. Everyone gets overwhelmed by the totality of their plight … but when it’s broken down to it’s individual components, each one is a realistic goal to reach for.
Start with the one thing that is most pressing need and try to get that … don’t worry about the rest until you get the first thing done.Think of your situation like an emergency room handles patients … they first stop major bleeding, then clear airways and restart breathing, etc. … they don’t worry about the broken arm until the patient is no longer a threat to bleed out and the breathing is stabilized. yes, the broken arm is important but a person can live with a broken arm for a long time … they cannot live without blood and air.
first step dawg