It seems like no matter how good a day I end up having and how happy I am someone or something always ends up ruining it and making me want to die I had a good month I think of not cutting and I just did god damnit screw life I feel like I want to start planning again
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I’m the same way. I can be having a really good day and then something almost little just sets me off and makes me really sad. Then i cut too but cutting can only work for so long…
one of the hardest parts of recovery for me is when i do mess up. but recovery is hard,and i think one of the hardest parts about it is forgiving ourselves and picking ourselves back up when we do mess up. it feels like we’ve forever ruined everything,but that’s not true. the berlin wall wasn’t built in a day,and recovery doesn’t take one day either. you can do this!! please don’t give up on yourself. i’m so proud of you that you lasted one month! that’s a huge accomplishment and i think it’s important to give credit where credit is due.now see if you can make it last two! it does get easier over time…if i can recover from my ed as messed up as i am,i believe anybody can recover. stay strong! your worth it!