Last few moments

It is truly hard to say.
But today has become the day.
Swearing to be more.
All to hear your every adore..
I do not want to be adored..
I’d much rather be ignored.
My hate envelopes me.
My blood it falls for only thee.
I once said I’d die without you.
But I never asked what you would do.
Ive sharpened my knife and said my good word.
Though it may never be heard.
Hardly can one accept my means to an end but..
It’s so much easier to bleed by the cut.
I once screamed to your face and begged for your love.
Like once you an angel from god above..
No more do I wallow in your shadow.
Instead I stare and wonder my death in my own window.
Underappreciation would be an understatement.
I do not want to live under this arrangment.
I wish I left something in your life like a dent
Because I will make you my last moment.