Just no. I dont even know what to say now. My girlfriend left me. My parents didn’t get me anything fir my bday. No one called. Not one person. So just as I’m about to kill myself, my mom calls me. She bitches at me for 15 mins about failing a class this quarter. I pull the trigger, nothing happens. My dad demilled the gun. There’s no firing pin. So now I’m left sitting here with my wrist gushing blood from my self injury. I don’t even want to try anymore. I want to cut my neck open and die.
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hi, lostchild445… This is another opportunity for you to find out where you can be successful… and then focus your efforts there. The message you’re receiving is that your life is valuable and has purpose… but that value is only realized when you’re determined to move forward. Think about it. Put the negatives aside for a bit… and REALLY think about things.
Things? Things suck. I have no one. I love nothing. I want nothing. I have nothing. I can’t live but I won’t fucking die. Do you people know what it’s like? Of course you do. Were all survivors. Let me ask you this. How many of you, just after attempting, get told how useless you are. How many of you have tried and tried and tried but still could not die? I’ve tried everything. Pills electrocution bleeding out suffocating and now I have a gun that can’t shoot. I don’t understand! Why can’t I just die? Please, for fuck sake let me die! It’s all I’ve wanted for so long. I’ve lost everything. And everyone. And I can’t even die! I’m stuck. I’m stuck suffering through this god damn hell every day. And every day it gets worse. Every day I’m tortured. Something must love to watch me suffer. To think “he shall know pain beyond what us just but he shall not know the pleasure of death.” I just want the pain to stop…
Dude, you’ve got balls. I wish I had your ability to pull the trigger – very impressive. Do you have a “Party City” store near you? A helium tank is only about $20, a tube and huffy bag and you are golden
Do I know what it’s like? I sure do… I didn’t Google one night at 2am and find this site because I was celebrating… I found this site on one of many dark moments. Moments that I still combat. Speaking from experience… You ultimately can reduce and minimize the pain. Nobody else is in the driver’s seat. At some point, you have to put the list of pains aside and start a new list… a list that deals with moving forward. Until you do that, you’re stuck. I empathize with you… and I wish this stuff hadn’t happened to you. It has. The past is the past. When you’re ready to move forward, you’ll find support. The darkness can fade.
idk what to say. i wish i could take away all of your pain.:( i’m so sorry. i just want to tell you that i believe there is a reason you’re here,and the fact that you’ve survived so much is a testament to that. i don’t think it’s to make you suffer,i think it’s because there is something important left for you to do. it sounds like the people in your life have really let you down. but because they mistreat you-that doesn’t mean that your not worth anything. it means they suck. we care about you. i’m always here for you if you want to talk.