Do you ever feel like your in a race to find happiness? Something new will come into your life and you think wow i cant wait for that to happen then maybe i will be happy. Then it happens and still feel empty. You start trying to run again for yet another thing that you think will make you happy but it still never does. I’m tired of running and hoping.
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I understand what you’re saying… and I know the feeling well. There will be something coming up that I will be certain represents something new… a new page or a new chapter…. and it turns out to be a dud. I’ve learned, through those experiences, to not put all my future happiness and goals into one event… and I’ve realized, by doing that, that life is less of a roller coaster. I still look forward to things… but I treat them as a bonus instead of being the only hope I have. It lets me put some control on things instead of going down a path that’s subject to every little thing along the way.
I guess I just dont have enough going on in my life because it seems these little things that i hope will make me happy are really the only things I have right now in my life. Its just an empty, mind numbing, monotonous, useless, lonely feeling.