I’m a freshmen in college and I have not made alot of friends. I started getting anxious junior year of high school and it ended up being a social thing where i felt like i was constantly being judged by EVERYONE and still do. Either the social anxiety has caused me to be deeply depressed for about 2 and a half years or the depression has made me so withdrawn from being social with old friends and trying to meet new friends that my life has become a very boring one.
For an extrovert like myself it is literally torture to be sitting in my room night in and night out while my peers go out and chase girls and have fun with other people they met. I want to be happy and social so badly and I am on an anti depressant and have been in and out of counseling but my issues are getting to a point where I’m not sure how many options I have left. I don’t want to live life scared anymore, I’d honestly not live it at all. I guess I’m just not this tough.