hello internet
i just wanna write something what i think of stuff, hope you can underestand what i mean because english is not my first language. I found this page by searching google for information about hanging. Sitting in my room alone ( im not going to kill myself) just thinking about that if someone wants to kill themselves they should be allowed to. If youre over 18 and havnt got any mental health problems which would affect your ability to make decisions. its your decision and alot of people are lying that they care and just talking stuff like they know but they just saying stuff for you to belive but nobodies give a $^&^it . If i do suff to myself i know that nobodie would really care ive got no family and no real friends. ofcourse if you got parents and stuff dont do it it will break their hearts. Alot of comments on the internet will say dont do it and stuff but you dont know me just saying you care and stuff. Im not depressed or something i feel very peacefull and its a nice feeling . im very lonely and alone, no family no friends ( real friends) they just say that they are my friends to get sex . but i dont care because i know im a freak and nobodie would love me . i dont want u to make you feel sorry for me or feeling sorry for myself and stuff but some people are just better off dead. Im not encourouging to do stuff, just dont lie that u care and stuff like that. and dont post instructions on the internet how to do suicide. just let everyone decide for themselves.
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Sounds like your an introvert, if your happy being alone i mean,i too have found that solitude suits me a times, but its important to have friends aswell, a healthy balance of both is needed i think.
im not sure what your post is about, or what side of suicide your standing, but you sound like you have an interesting perspective, and an intelligent one.
I would love to chat with you 🙂
Are you considering killing yourself? if so i just want to know why, because you seem to have a good understanding of things.
im not sure whayt this post is about eather
yeah somethimes have difficulties exolaining myself completley just got fed up that everyone is just saying dont do stuff, you can trust me, i know how you feel * and that kind of shit, they just want you get your trust and nothing else and at the end nobodie can help and u feel like a fool for trusting your feelings to them but thats not they foult they just dont want u to kill yourself dunno why
You don’t know that no one would love you. A lot of people on here say that but I bet if there was a reversal and they were in a position to give it, their expectations would be far higher. That’s the main reason why people are alone. Because it’s just a no win situation. I would not settle either so I kindof understand it. But there’s more, there’s creativity, humour, ingenuity and kindness that people don’t have anymore. It’s all been replaced by ideals that I superimposed by the media and the premise that it’s far more productive to hang around on forums about suicide asking why there is rejection when the pertinent question should be of an entirely different nature.
Im glad you repsonded, But you never answered my question.
And i know your going to hate this, but im going to say it anyway, You can teust me 🙂
For what its worth.
Im not going to stop you from doing anything, You can do what ever you like, i just want to know the logic behind your decisions.
You said you were at peace but you also said you were lonely, So i guess im just saying im here if you wana chat, a little company?
Why do you think you have no real friends?
Im a bit loney myself tonight, So i guess im looking for someone to talk to myself, and you seem interesting. 🙂
i think that there is alot of people who nobodie would love not only me and if they want they should be able to kill themselves and go to doctor and ask for suicide pill without feeling bad about it
Why would they need to go to a doctor when the tools are readily available.
“im very lonely and alone, no family no friends ( real friends) they just say that they are my friends to get sex”
“but i dont care because i know im a freak and nobodie would love me”
basically you’re looking for love
Ok, maybe i judged you wrong.
peace
🙂
no im glad hat i can talk to somebodie i dont like beeing alone but better to be alone then listen to stuff from people who knows u personally and says they care but they dont i dunno why they do it. im not talking about internet comments. but its not fair that i would go to people who knows me and tell them about my shit and they wouldnt know what to say and say sentimental stuff they dont mean i dunno im not very good at explaining myself
what tools there must be like a suicide pill which would be 100% effective because alot of things may go wrong
dont get annoyed by me u wont talk to me anymore
and im not looking for love and stuff just want to talk
True, but im still trying to decrypt it,
i dont know you, and im not saying anything like that, but i do know the people your on about, i know i few of them myself.
And to address your post, a mentaly healthly person wouldnt kill themselfs, it goes againist our survival instinct. So there must be something wrong with them.
and i dont want u to feel sorry for me
There is. Its call potassium cyanide and absolute nothing can go wrong. It can be purchased online with the minimum of fuss.
u say that if sombodie wants to kill themselves theyre something wrong? i think its just a thing you do if youre fed up nothing wrong with that
I dont, i want to understand.
So could you explain your situtation more, why do think you will be alone forever?
if we all killed ourselves when we were upset or had a bad day or bad week everyone in the world would be dead, I will admit in extreme cases, like someone who has been abused for years might want to die, that i can understand, but a healthly person killing themselves i cant agree with.
You cant Log off now, it was just getting interesting.
i dunno everythings just shit but dont worry
Yet here we are.
I can’t crush the psychiatrist like I used too. Make them feel insignificant and remove all meaning from their job function. My brain feels like a piece of lead these days. They used to wonder the same thing. It’s only now that I can see things from their perspective has it dawned upon me; I have lost.
the more i say the more foolish i feel i dunno thats why i cant trust but thanks for taliking to me its embaressing like im seeking for atention
I told you im not worring, i just want to understand, ok maybe im a little worried, but its mostly just the wondering.
WHYWHYWHY do you think no one will ever love you ?
you dont have to feel foolish here, were all messed up. 🙂
cool 😀 whats ur story then?
Mine is very very very very long, but the post before yours is mine if you want to read that. the “group theraphy” one.
I will tell you mine if you tell me yours, LOL. 🙂 sounds so weird. ok give me a few minutes and i will write a summary for you.
ok tnx
I had a normal childhood,but my father used to beat me.
so i left home when i was old enough.(17)
i also have bipolar, but i have always managed it without medication.
I met a great a girl, we fell in love.
She Died. Then my left fell apart, i quit college and became addicted to drugs.
Lost everyone i every loved because i allways stoned and i l lived on the streets for a while, then i tried to kill myself three times.
Then a person i met here convinced me to go to rehab,i did, I got clean.
I went back to college got a degree as a crisis counselor.
I have my life back, im clean, i have a steady job, my bipolar is undercontrol again.
i have real friends and i am getting back on talking terms with my family.
i am happy.
Whats your story?
my story is mainly that i have to choose : to be something my family and friends want to see and what they want me to be and be around people i care about but feel shit inside and pretending just to make them happy . or to be happy with myself but with no family and friends. i choosed the last one but i hate to be alone thats why i do drugs and sex because i feel loved then but its just shit because its messing u up even more and i get fed up and everythings just shit and if u kill urself u gonna get new life
Im guessing your a buddist, Why risk starting a new life when you can fix this one, it doesnt sound like you have done anything to terrible.
you say you have only two choices, to pretend to be what your family wants or to numb yourself with sex and drugs, i say you have a third.
Why cant you just be yourself, just do what makes you happy, If other people dont like it then fuck them, we are all alone in the world, thats reality, so be yourself.
When you start being yourself others will either except you or they wont, then you can start ot move forward with your life as the real you.
Do you think you will try? Isant it worth trying, a chance at being happy?
tnx for reading that stuff
yeah everyone says just be true to urself and stuff im doing that but now im left on my own everyone is gone thats shit and i miss them
tnx for reading ans trying to understand that shit dunno why im writing it i bet u get millions of weird people here 😀
im no budhist but i belivw that u get another life im not saying that im gonna kill myself now
and sometimes u just cant sort ur life out no matter wehat u do its shit and thats why people shpuld be aloved to kill themselves if theyre alone and over 18 or dying slowly in painfull death
No problem, Alone isant that bad, you just have to get used to eat, or make new friends who are like or do like the real you.
i cant believe your family has abandoned you just because the real you doesnt live up to there expectations. but if its true then maybe your better off. You cant be happy if you have to pretend your whole life.
Missing them i understand all too well, i miss my family aswell, but i have adjusted to my new life, you could too.
We dont get two many weirdos on here, it just you really. 🙂 Im just kidding, we are all weird, but you just jumped out at me for some reason. i cant explain it really.
I agree that someone dieing slowly should be aloud to die, and in america they are. if your dying and you can get two docs to authorise it you can end your life. So your not alone on that one.
But just because someone is 18 doesnt mean they are ready to make there own decisions, i would only now consider myself a grown up. (26)
Good, i hope you dont kill yourself, I like chating with you. 🙂
You can eamil me if you every want to chat in future, or if your just lonely.
Can i ask where your from, I was guessing Asia, but now i think im way off and im gona go with eastern european.? so where is it? if you dont mind telling that is.
did u make this website?
i m from germany
NO, why would say that?
Ah germany, i dont speak german. Efficent country i hear.
Im from Ireland.
i dunno because u talk to me
Anyone here would talk to one. Your no less important.
Well im on GMT time, so im going to go to sleep now.
But seriously, email me if you want to talk.
Even If you dont, i Hope you find the happiness you seek.
peace 🙂