I’ve lurked here for quite a while now. I’ve spent the last few years suffering on and off with “depression”* of increasing regularity and severity. I came out of my last depression only 2 weeks ago and now it’s starting up again. Every down is getting longer than the respite preceding it and I don’t want to live like that. Tonight was the first time it hit me while out and about. One minute I was sitting down with a drink actually trying to enjoy myself and the next I was punching the shit out of a wall because I was suddenly overwhelmed. I don’t like this and I don’t know what to do.
*I use quotes as I’m not diagnosed, but I work on the principle that if everybody suffered this way, people would not have lived long enough to infect as wide an area as they have.