thats my story, except i never turned into anything beautiful. Just like the ugly Duckling, i was born ugly, people made fun of me about it since 5th grade until now (senior) and there’s just nothing good going for me. Im honestly one of those people who are ashamed of walking down the hallway because the way i look. im one of those people who walk with my head down on my way to classes. Im just soo tired of looking like this. i know i talk about it all the time, but i believe if i was confident about my looks for once in my life, then ill be happy. Im literally the ugly friend. All my friends are in the Cool crowd. and they treat me great, but its just the others don’t. One day we were sitting at a table, and this guy who all the girls like came to the table and he was greeting all my friends. He said “Hey beautiful….Hey gorgeous…..Hey how you doing….Hey girl…..”. Then he literally just looks at me and doesn’t say anything. =( the whole time during lunch i just kept thinking to myself, am i that ugly? he couldn’t even speak to me. I have low-self esteem, and Social anxiety. I just cant keep living like this no more. So you know what im going to do? At First, i couldn’t stand myself to the point where i was just going to kill myself, I overdosed and every night to just not trying to wake up in the morning. but no, im not doing this anymore!!
I am the ugly duckling, but we all know what happened at the end of that story. He turned into a beautiful swan! and that is what im going to do! or at lease try. April 28th is prom. that whole week i plan to get my hair done different, im going to dye my hair blonde, because i always wanted to do that, but i was to afraid too! so you know what, i will. ill do it for myself. and ill go get a pedicure and a Medicare, and buy myself some new clothes. Ill even wear some foundation to cover my hideous acne scars. ill change my whole attitude when this comes through. But this isn’t happening until prom week, so i have 3 weeks until this happens. but i can and will do it.
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Of course you can do it..although i highly doubt it needs to be done..and i bet youre gorgeous! Youre judging yourself by whose standards? Who is to say who’s pretty and who isnt? If your standards are telling you youre ugly, then go by your parents’s standards or go by mine. I can tell youre a great person… :] Good luck at the prom(even though you dont need it) I know youre gonna turn heads :]
I doubt you’re ugly. How old are you? Because I promise that the beautiful people are only pretty on the outside and once people get older, they become less shallow (well some people) and someone will see you’re far more beautiful because you’re real and you have depth and so many people lack that.
I love your spirit! You go! Do what feels right. Be YOU, your spirit speaks volumes about who you are, and I hope you have an awesome time! Keep in mind that kids judge so much-too skinny, too chubby, too blonde, too red, too ANYTHING. Everything is “TOO” or “NOT ENOUGH” until high school is over. A year after high school, I saw so many popular skinny chicks-no make up, pregnant and miserable. Didn’t wish it, but it’s a different world a month after graduating. Seriously strange as hell. I was told that, but didn’t expect it so soon. Wow! So take care of yourself. Try to get past HS if possible and see what happens. See what life after HS brings…
inhale love exhale hate….
I know your beautiful inside and out.