I’m 95% certain I’m gonna leave this world by my own hands
already tried to leave around last christmas .. I ingested some highly toxic substance (used to unblock sinks) hoping it’d damage my stomach .. all I did was throw up (2-3 times) and I lost the ability to taste for a week
this time, I’m going to hang myself
but for some reason, I keep postponing this even though I have no attachment to this world nor am afraid of what awaits me on the other side
(I believe death is “just” a transition between the physical world & other planes of reality)
I feel like if my body or the universe finds a way to keep me here, I’m going to allow my dark side to take control .. become a destructive, purely ego-driven person
why would I surrender to darkness ? because life seems to play good-hearted or concerned people for fools
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I dont know you and i dont care if you do it or not, but believe me this one thing things gets better you just need to try harder, stop letting life piss you start annoying this world
im with you on that one all i ever do is get fucked over, people walk all over me and i cant stop them, i just really want to walk off a cliff or shoot myself, something. i have nobody that actually and genunily cares. 🙁