do you know to what point I’ve gotten ? I no longer wish/want normal people to be caring or understanding (validate my pain in other words), I’d prefer they respect my choices instead of judging or trying to understand them .. to choose death over life and leave by my own will is one of them
just because normal people go out of their way to stay alive, don’t necessarily know how overwhelming & draining depression can get but can only imagine, I’m forced to stay here as a result ? who entitled them to keep me alive and -this is what bothers me the most- try to have me being functional in a dysfunctional society ? the being they refer to as God ?
if that’s the case, why wouldn’t God talk directly to me instead ?
also, why is death often seen as a tragedy ? how about it being seen as a delivrance ?
this isn’t a pro-suicide post, more of a thinking outside the box one
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Quite agreeable.
While I do find it wrong “normal” people find the need to impose their beliefs/opinions( forcefully ) onto you, I don’t think suicide is always the best and people do have a point. It is YOUR life in the end, it SHOULD be your choice as to what you want to do with it. I personally rather a person not kill themselves, but I can’t fully understand their suffering and such – I’d like to think people can work it out and in the end become happy though. But again, sometimes those people have valid points and in the end you just may thank them for saving your life.
Your thoughts echo my own I’ve had on this subject. I strongly oppose the fact that you can be institutionalized if you’re at risk of suicide. They should not have the power to make that decision for you.
To be honest, truthbetold, I’m typically all about individual decisions, free will, civil liberties, and everything that goes along with it… and I’ve often had thoughts similar to yours when it came down to deciding that it was time to call it a day. I’m middle-aged, it’s been an experience, things aren’t going anywhere, and I’m adult enough to make a mature decision. Easy enough.
For me, I can easily deal with whatever decision I wind up doing. My life has evolved to the point where it’s sufficiently stuck. When it comes to others, however, different story. I still can’t imagine someone experiencing so much pain that they decide the exit strategy is their best possibility. Perhaps it’s because I haven’t yet pulled the plug… or it’s my body’s indirect way of telling myself that things aren’t yet that bad… I’m just not sure. SP might be just a speed bump. After all, if things don’t change, it is what it is.
@willtickin: I had a break from depression for 2-3 years where I was +/- happy, so I can see why it’s wiser to sit on the fence (?) when it comes to this topic .. you only get to live once & things may get better.. or not
I’ve come to the conclusion that as a compromise (between the one who’s suffering & the belief that things get better), people should have the right to leave by their own will beyond a certain age, like somewhere between 21 and 25
but since a lot of people don’t even want to think about death ..
@distant.road:
by pulling the plug, do you mean getting to the point where you give up on life for good ?
like, you’re no longer interested in the human experience at all ?
@truth: Aye, sit on the fence and take a nice long look at both sides before you decide jumping down on one – especially if one side there is no climbing back up.
I do think if there was such a thing 20’s-ish would be an okay start age. While I understand a person can obtain much pain and suffering before that age( as clearly shown by many here ), I think getting out the teenage years and trying out life elsewhere might give another perspective. But it is different for everyone, and hell for all you know it could be better when you’re older, but you didn’t give it the chance. I don’t know, I don’t think there are particular circumstances that apply to everyone. Meh, I never want to tell somebody “Yes, suicide is okay, go do it” – never. But in the end that’s their choice, I won’t take it away – but I will TRY very hard to show them that just MAYBE it isn’t the right choice.
Yea…most don’t enjoy the thought of death…
I hear that