I’ve been listening to birdy a lot lately! i really love her voice and music.. it really speaks to me. if you haven’t heard of her you have to look her up on youtube.!
well this weeks been hard for me.. and I’m not even sure why.. it just seems like everyone leaving me… tho I’ve made a new friend which I’m so thankful for and i absolutely love her for heaping me. tho she may not know it. she is helping me..I’ve been thinking about suicide more an more….. i started puking again…. ugh why am i so messed up??? i badly want to cut… but i just can’t do it!
my one friend has been really moody… and pissing me off….. Â she just puts my down and takes me for granted.. one day i won’t be there…. or something may happen to me…
I’m going to be going to therapy soon in the end of april.. and in a couple weeks I’m going to see my doctor about my depression… ugh…
ok i have a question for a lllllll of you guys! ok here it is: ok I’ve been thinking.. i say we should make a movement r something.. give it a name and put it to work,,, it can be to stop depression or bullies, or the pain. anything.. i want to do something! so the question is… do you guys have any ideas????
Good question… There have been quite a few posts on here lately by people who are being bullied and pushed around. We can support each other… and I’ll try to think about a movement idea or two. For now, I just wanted to compliment your idea.
I’m glad you made a new friends… and that’s awesome that she’s been a blessing to you! I hope your other friend stops doing that… That isn’t cool.:( Going to therapy and seeing your doctor are good steps… They will help you take care of you… which is the most important person for you to take care of.
yes I’m just scared to go…
I understand that… It can be intimidating to meet a stranger and talk about your deepest thoughts. Don’t be scared… You’ll meet… Questions will be asked to get to know you… and there will be conversations… two-way conversations… The more insight you provide, the more assistance you can get. You’re doing the right thing. No doubt about it.
i don’t really open up to people tho.. so therapy may be really hard for me.. i’ll probably just break down in tears..
If you break down, there is nothing wrong with that. Nothing at all. Sometimes it’s best to let your emotions out. At the same time, you’re letting them know just how much things affect you… and that’s important to share… either through words or a demonstration. I think as you get comfortable and things flow, you’ll share more. It might not come out at first… and it might come out in bits and pieces… but things will happen step by step.
i hope this helps me… i just want the pain to go away… its been to long..
I think it’s one of the best things you can do… Over time, the pain will go away… As long as you keep working hard and accepting help, you’re doing the right thing… and that’s how things get taken care of.
ugh…. i just find how its so much work…. wish it would just go away on its own…
I wish that everything could just fix itself… It would be really nice. Sometimes, things require a little assistance. You’ve shown a lot of strength by reaching out… a lot.
I’m really glad to hear that… tho it feels like I’m getting worse
There will be some really good days…. and some really not-so-good days. It’s figuring out how to steadily move forward… by enjoying the good days.. and preparing for the not-so-good days so you have a strategy to keep going. There may be some rough days… but we can often look back and say that, despite a tough day or two, it was still a really good week.
i guess yes that can be true