What could go wrong?…..

My world feels pretty grim right now too, and I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a big hug. I don’t know why all of those sad things are happening to you, but it’s a lot for one person to bear. I think your need to reach out is pretty normal given all of the stress you’re under right now. It’s good you reached out too 🙂 I’m a total stranger, but I care about you. It sounds like you’ve had a very rough life, I can’t imagine being shot and stabbed, or hearing my mother say something so hurtful. I’m so sorry you’re going through all of this, but I believe you will get through it and be okay in time, maybe not tomorrow or next week, but you will. I started looking for help last night myself because I too am overwhelmed with the hurtful things happening in my life, and I found this little quote: “It is not how bad the problem is, but how badly it’s hurting the person who has it.” Perhaps your family members don’t realize just how hurt you are right now. Could you reach out to a trusted friend? or a counselor? Reaching out is hard, I know, but I am certain you’re not ‘better off dead’. What horrible words to say to you. You are special and wonderfully made, a unique human being on this planet and you have years ahead of you to make your mark on this world, don’t sell yourself short. Take things a moment at a time if that’s all you can bear. Do things to distract your mind. Contract with yourself or even someone else you trust, to hang in there another hour, then another, and another. It sounds like you’re in the midst of a crisis point, and that’s not a fun place to be at all. Don’t look at yourself through the eyes of others either, your mother may have said that, and she may have just been angry or she may have really believed that, but that does not make her opinion the truth, it’s just her opinion, and it doesn’t mean you have to see yourself the way she does. You are worth so much more <3