You left without me

… I just got a call.. From my best friends brother… She died at 10:48. They couldn’t save her. They said she lost too much blood… That there was no hope to save her… Amanda…my best friend…you promised me..that we were both stuck here with each other… and you left.. Without calling me, without telling me.. without taking me with you… You alone got me through my hospitalization. You gave me hope. You were the only one that could make me laugh anymore… Whose gonna make me laugh now? Whose gonna tell me it’s ok? Whose gonna remember the times we had at the unit? I loved you like a sister. I would’ve thrown myself infront of a train before I let you fall… But I couldn’t save you… not this time… I know we were both atheists, but I hope we were wrong. Heaven or hell, I need to see you again. I miss you Amanda. Your whole family, ur mom n bro, me n falon n Hannah… Well never be the same without you. Rest in peace love, you’re finally free from your pain.