April 4th, 2012 by kjl131313

I just came across this website a couple days ago. I have gone through reading everyone’s writings from the bad to the good. I have been suicidal for over 14 years. I have gone through the depression of high school getting close to friends only to in my own way pushing them away to where I was alone. I been through everything I read here. But I do not have bad family background. I am bipolar and suicidal thoughts are part of my life. As I have gotten older I wish I could say things get easier but for me they have in a way. You learn to not care what people think and you live for yourself. Yes right now there is nothing to live for you think but there is and you are stronger than you think. Everyday you wake up you prove how strong you really are. I will forever be alone because I havent found that one who understands what I am going through but reading these posts gives me hope that I am not the only one fighting these thoughts. I honestly wish I could be there for everyone of you. Because I could not live with myself knowing that I could have helped and showed you my scars to show you that they fade but they truly don’t go away. I always hated when people said they understood because when you are thinking of suicide and going through you can’t believe they understand the pain you feel but believe it or not some of us have sat in your shoes and felt the pain and wanted to just end it. I really and just going on and on. You are all stronger than you think and as you grow older you will realize you were super strong to be able to survive and go through what you went through. Hang in there.

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