Attention

I can’t share with anyone how I feel. None of my “friends” come from a broken home. I haven’t talked to my mother since Christmas and I can’t trust to tell my grandmother anything in fear of her telling my mom. My dad ignores me all the time and acts like “sorry son I didn’t hear you” and he try’s to cover up how he resents me. Seeing as I was an accident you would think he would have just put me up for adoption as a baby. My brother to. We just found out recently who my brothers real dad was and our mom knew the whole time and if she had been a decent person she would have made him live with his father as a child. And my dad never liked my brother. I asked him why he didn’t when I was little and he got angry. The only time my dad seemed like he cared for me was when I played football and then I quit and it’s back to my lonely. I can’t handle this world anymore. I have no one to share this with but this website in hopes of someone I can talk to. I’m tired of being ignored if anyone heard gunshots from the basement would they check on me?