I’ve had it all … Zyprexa, Lamictal, Zanex, Lexapro, Oxycodone, Percoset, Ambien, and dozens more plus Pot, Alcohol, LSD, and more.
And months of nothing – which is the worst because you are then stuck with your thoughts
What is your favorite? What are you on and does it help?
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Although I should be, I’m not on anything.
I don’t like medication because I see it as something that makes you someone that you aren’t. (if that makes sense)
Like although depression is horrible, if you get through it, it makes you quite stronger.
Taking medication will just temporarily take the depression away.
When it comes back, you pop another pill, and another, and another.
I honestly don’t believe any of it helps.
I laugh at it because some side effects of most anti depressants are more suicidal thoughts.
Like oh okay, that’s going to help?
What?
Yeah.. I have been eating pills for over 8 years and I actually feel that everything has just got worse…And now I can’t even sleep without taking pills because I am so addicted to them..
But in my case I don’t think I can get over my depression anyway so it doesn’t matter what I am taking. I just wish I could get some harder stuff than a little alcohol..
I know it doesn’t help my depression, but in this state I just want some pleasure from somewhere. I don’t care about long-term effects, I am going to die soon anyway..
Beer is my weapon of choice. I’ve been medicated my whole life. The trick is to replace a box of tic tacs with anti depressants then people think you are happily chewing mints when your happiness is wholly involuntary. I sometimes think if they have an ounce of sense they too might be concealing a box of tic tacs. What is their problem. A guy doesn’t speak to anyone and they say he’s weird. As if what they do interests me, yet, they seem to spend more time thinking about what I’m up to. You can’t go about your business without someone having something to say about it. Just ranting, ignore me.
I’m outside in the beer garden having a beer and a smoke. This girl is outside with some guy smoking weed. She goes she’s just had a kid. Why ain’t she at home looking after her child. Girls in the UK have no self respect. They wonder why I keep to myself.
:/ I’d give anything to live in the UK. That makes me so sad. Americans are awful
okaaaaaaaaay… that was a weird comment considering what the guy just said.
and no, don’t come here, right now the UK is chock full of immigrants and we don’t look kindly on any more!
I believe that your title is a QOTSA reference. Nicotine, Vicodin, Marijuana, Alcohol.
emptiness7 UK is where Americans came from…apple don’t fall that far from the tree and I agree with you about our culture…not so good socially compared to many other places.
chemicals?
depends on what I am trying to learn/experience or tolerate and what my context is.
Best chemicals in my experience are those released in response to: exercise (sweat and elevated heart rate), H2O (staying hydrated), caffeinated tea, strong coffee in the morning, social support, hobbies, goals, hugs, laughter, sex alone or within clear relationship, visual beauty, music, compassion and loosing time being focused in an enjoyable acivity. Nonetheless, depending on circumstances (internal and external) these are not so attainable.
PTSD? sleep issues? anxiety? depression? I deal with each one differently …too much to write about each one here.
I stay away from drugs that must be taken long term to have an effect and I stay away from partying or aiming for oblivion with drugs…the hangover gets longer and the benefits get shorter and unsustainable fast. Drugs not used consciously are like reckless driving, you can get away with it for only so long…the piper will be paid especially if there aren’t a lot of enablers around. When I’ve been in extreme emotional pain I have slowly knocked myself mostly out for a day but I kept reminding myself that I was playing with fire – like surgery it shouldn’t be done for recreation.
That being said I believe LSD ( I took for months 35 years ago but never since) diminished my PTSD greatly (though I don’t recommend it as the conditions are vital to the drug helping and as with any drug effects vary among people.
If I had a therapeutic environment or perhaps just a clean trusted source I’d try MDMA to help with the remnants of the PTSD and to try and help diminish some of the ‘side effects’ of having had mostly untreated PTSD so young and reinforced by so many events.
I’ve tried every drug available in the US except MDMA and crack.
Drugs can take you away from reality for awhile… but for me exercise, not taking life too seriously (detachment), accepting that life sucks sometimes are all you can do.
wish I had more access to drugs. I’ve wanted to try LSD for ages. Will see if I can get legal Kratom for helping me to sleep/knock myself out of my depression.